I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: I want to have J Smooth’s hip hop love children.
First, Beating the Little Hater:
And this week, Ballad of the Little Hater:
There’s a Little Hater in all of us. :)
My 30 in 30 project is going pretty well. I have a lot of things to do scheduled throughout the month. It seems like, since I’ve opened myself to trying lots of new things, opportunities have been popping up all over the place. I believe in momentum and attraction - that when you are aligned and focused on something, the Universe starts lining up to give you what you want (positively and negatively).
So I was thinking. (I do that a lot.) I turn 30 on July 31, 2009 - that’s 330 days from now (hee!). What if, in addition to 30 new things in 30 days, I made a list of 30 things to do before I turn 30? Of course, the first few things I thought of doing were of the “must do before I die” variety, or the “too big to do in such a time period” variety, or the “too expensive to raise enough capital to do” variety. Mind you, this isn’t me limiting myself, but rather me being realistic. (Somewhere in the world there’s a personal development blogger that just woke up in a cold sweat. “Someone’s doubting their potential!”)
Solution! I’m going to make two lists. The first - 30 by 30: thirty things of a manageable size and scope (and at least a couple of the “shoot for the moon” variety) that I want to accomplish between now and my 30th birthday. The second - 40 by 40: forty big, huge, change-of-life type things that I want to accomplish before I turn 40. This is where I’ll put the really big things, the do-them-before-I-die things, and the oh-my-God-I’m-terrified-of-doing-this things.
First, the what: In the month of September, I pledge to do 30 new things in 30 days.
Second, the why: In the last two weeks, I’ve done a lot of new things.
I’ve been to a couple of poetry open mics, to a night of live music, checked out a new coffee shop two blocks from where I live, taken a free swing dancing lesson, gone to a Madonna vs. Prince vs. Michael Jackson dance party, and gone to the IMAX at the Maryland Science Center. All are things I’ve never done before, and most are things that I normally would not have done.
Normally I probably would have done what I always do - gone to the movies, gone out to eat, done the same old thing with the same people. Or, if all of my friends were already busy I would have stayed home. Depending on the night I might have read, or slept, or watched a DVD. Or I would have sulked, and maybe cried a little, and thought about how I had nothing to do and no one to do it with.
Instead, I was invited to do something different, and I took the person up on it. That led to another and another, and suddenly I was wrapped up in a snowball of new experiences. And all this newness got me thinking: what if I just kept going? And so, the 30 in 30 Project was born.
And third, the only rule: no half stepping.
I’m not even sure what number blog I am on now. I’ve had so many, and very few of them really made it off the ground.
The only thing I did keep consistently was my Livejournal. Somewhere along the way, I lost interest in that, even. I stopped posting, stopped reading other people’s posts. I love Livejournal for what it’s given me - especially the people I’ve met through it - and I may make the occasional friends-only post (in addition to cross-postng what I write here). But with all the drama that comes with LJ, and all the changes going on there, something in me decided that my LJ era was over.
So where does that leave me? In flux - ironically, the same place I’ve been for a long, long time. It’s been forever since I’ve felt really stable or centered…since I’ve felt like I have a place in the world that is mine and mine alone. I don’t mind that my life is constantly changing, but I do mind feeling untethered and completely lacking focus. It’s time for big changes.
So what’s this blog about? Well….me, mostly. My life. There are plenty of “value-added” blogs out there - places you can go and get great info or a new perspective or some life-changing piece of advice. When I come across those, I’ll probably say something here. But this is not one of those blogs. This is…my statement of intention to the Universe. A record of how I went from being “that girl” to “Laya”.
…with all sorts of other randomness thrown in. If I am anything, it is eclectic.
So pull up a chair. If something you read here helps you out, then that’s cool - that would make me happy, to know I said something that affected someone else.
Welcome to my world.
